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u’re the only parent that i have since i opened my eyes and gasped my first breath in this world…i grew up with ur very strong efforts and capabilities as a responsible parent..with u,all worries and uncertainties are nothing because u’re always there for me to comfort and correct me when i took the wrong way and guided me patiently and although even sometimes i insist my stubbornness…u take me as i am..not just as ur daughter but a friend..i can still remember when i was a kid the time when we are eating dinner u ate just a bit coz u wanted to satisfy my stomach  coz our food is not that much..u never cried becoz of poverty but instead u keep on providing me my necessities and given me even more than i need….u never expect great things from me and u carried me on and thought me on how to be strong when i face trials…when things went wrong,ur always there to cheer me up…i’ve never been afraid coz u’re always there for me..and encourage me not to give up to get what i want in a better way…even though people are discriminating u for being an unwed mother u never give up to love me and go on d right way..when u saw me cried because my playmates are bullying me about my being an illegitimate "putok sa buho"w/c they often call me,u’ve shared with the pain i am struggling and thought me not to give up and still walk with pride coz i am better than them coz i know how to savor the essence of pain..never to be ashamed of who i am..ur words never failed..u kept me goin’ on…even now that ur physical strength is weak but the spirit of ur love for me is strong as ever…u’re always there for me…i love u.. and will love u always…

I WAS ONCE A SIX YEAR OLD LITTLE GIRL ASKING MY MOTHER AN INNOCENT QUESTION……"WHY IS IT THAT MY PLAYMATES AND FRIENDS DO HAVE THEIR FATHER?WHY IS IT THAT I DIDN’T SEE AND HUG MINE?WHY IS IT HE DIDN’T EVEN THOUGHT AND MADE ME FEEL HE LOVES ME?AND WHY IS IT THAT HE DIDN’T EVEN GIVEN ME A CHANCE TO SHOW AND LET HIM FEEL I LOVE HIM?"MY MOTHER JUST TURNED HER BACK ON ME AND SHED A TEAR FALLING FROM HER EYES AND THEN SAY DON’T WAIT FOR HIM.U’VE SEEN HIM ALREADY RIGHT?I SAID TO MYSELF YES,BUT I CAN’T REMEMBER HIS FACE ANYMORE.I KNOW MY FATHER CAME TO SEE ME WHEN I WAS FOUR..AS YEARS GOES BY,I’M STILL SEEKING ANSWERS FOR MY QUESTIONS…WONDRIN’ HOW’D IT FEEL TO BE LOVED BY A FATHER..HOW’D THINGS GO THROUGH IF HE’S ONE OF THE PEOPLE WHO GUIDED ME?I ENVY SEEING A KID CARRIED BY HER FATHER OVER HIS SHOULDER…NOW,FATHER’S DAY IS OVER…AND I’M NOT A GIRL ANYMORE…AND NOT SEEKING FOR THE ANSWERS OF MY QUESTIONS COZ’ I FOUND THEM IN MY HEART..COZ NOW I KNOW THAT I LOVE MY FATHER EVEN  W/OUT SEEING HIM PERSONALLY  COZ SEE HIM IN MY HEART..AND I KNOW TOO THAT HE LOVES ME COZ IF NOT,I WAS NOT ABLE TO SEE THIS WORLD AND LIVE..EVENTHOUGH IT’S LATE TO TELL HIM HOW I LOVE HIM COZ HE’S GONE NOW..BUT I CAN SHOW MY LOVE FOR HIM IN MY WAYS OF REMEMBERING HIM….